Leah siapa? Dia kakak cewek Seth Clearwater, satu2nya werewolf perempuan dalam kawanan Jacob Black. Dan dalam sejarah suku Quileute. Dan dalam sejarah ship-shifter atopun wereweolf (istilah apapun yang lebih suka dipake). Bagian dari cerita di Twilight.. (tenang2 gw gak ngebahas edward-bella ko! ;)). Gw Cuma suka mendalami apa yang dialamin sama tokoh ini.

Leah Clearwater, gak tau kenapa gw simpati banget sama tokoh satu ini.... Cuma butuh satu kata untuk ngegambarin apa yang dialamin sama niy tokoh cewek : MERANA. Dalam artian sebenarnya tanpa melebihkan suatu apapun. Saking merana nya sampe gw sendiri gak tau apa ada kondisi yang lebih terpuruk dan menyedihkan selain dari merana?

Jadi simpati gw bermula karena, di awal2 bukunya diceritain kalo Leah ditinggal Sam. siapa Sam? Sam itu cinta dalam hidupnya Leah, yup... cinta sejatinya, bener2 cinta nya....soulmate nya. Dan kalo lo pikir ini Cuma sekedar cerita putus cinta ala novel dan film2 hollywood? Coba pikir2 lagi. Kalo emang hanya ITU masalahnya pasti Leah bisa cepet ngelem kepingan2 hatinya dan balik lagi ke kondisi awal sebelum dia berhubungan sama Sam. Dia cewek kuat ko!

Tapi ini adalah novel, gak mungkin ceritanya Cuma berhenti sampe situ doang. Kenapa Sam ninggalin Leah? Jawabannya simpel. Sam udah dalam usia cukup untuk jadi werewolf. Lalu? Karena Sam jadi werewolf pastinya dia ngalamin fenomena yang sewajarnya dialamin werewolf. Imprint. Imprint? fenomena penemuan pasangan hidup ala werewolf (entah gimana ceritanya tapi werewolf langsung tau begitu liat calon pasangan idupnya dan mencintai cewek itu selamanya)... dalam artian SELAMANYA,,,,cinta dan pemujaan dalam tahap yang udah gak bisa ditolak lagi....

Dan.... bagian terbaiknya,,,, Sam imprint ke sepupunya Leah. Emily. Yup! Gw gak tau apa namanya selaen sodara makan sodara. Dan Leah juga jadi werewolf!! Satu-satunya werewolf betina (kalo ada pemisahan gender). Dan (belum cukup sampe disitu) werewolf punya kemampuan mendengarkan dan membalas pikiran teman2 dalam kawanannya.... jadi? Semua tau isi hati semua orang. Gak ada rahasia. Semua bisa tau isi hati orang lain dan bisa ngasi pendapat. Tanpa diminta.

Kalo patah hati dan merana sendirian siy itu bukan apa-apa.Bayangin aja apa yang didenger kawanan werewolf dari pikirannya Leah.... itu dia... sesuatu yang lebih dari sekedar merana, merana ekstra toping kesedihan, dengan saus patah hati.... Sam itu werewolf Alpha, dia yang ngasi perintah ke kawanan (emangnya ada yang lebih menyedihkan dari ngedengerin perintah mantan pacar yang sama sekali udah gak pengen elo ada di sana?)dan kalo Sam udah merintah SEMUA harus ngikutin, termasuk Leah.

Oia Leah juga gak bisa imprint dan gak bisa punya anak. Dia terkutuk selamanya jadi werewolf. Lengkap sudah. Merana. Gw bener2 kasihan sama tokoh ini..... pengen ikutan frustrasi juga ngebaca setiap baris perkataan ato pemikirannya dia. Karena sebenernya dia marah dan gak terima sama keadaan yang kayak gini. Karena dia sebenernya nanggung patah hati yang sebetulnya gak terlalu dalem tapi karena ketauan sama semua orang jadinya malah ngegali lebih dalem luka yang dia punya. Karena dia bisa terus2an denger pikiran Sam yang cinta mati sama Emily sedangkan isi pikirannya dia cinta mati sama Sam. Karena semua orang tau gimana isi hati dia. Karena dia punya beban berat banget dalam pundak dan hatinya.

Dan dia gak tau gimana cara ngilangin beban yang dia punya. Jadi dia bagi2 sama yang lain. Bagi-bagi rasa merana, sedih, dan gak berguna. Bikin hidup semua orang lebih susah. Mempersulit segala sesuatu, ngegosip hal yang semua orang pengen lupain. Intinya dia gak pengen merana sendirian, dan karena dia gak tau gimana caranya supaya dia bebas dari kemeranaannya dia, jadi deh dia bikin semua orang merana juga.

Gw kasian banget sama si Leah ini, waloupun di akhir bukunya dia udah gak sebegitu merana lagi (dia keluar dari kawanannya Sam, gabung sama Jake jadi kawanannya Jake. Kabar baiknya? Werewolf gak bisa dengerin pikiran werewolf dari kawanan lain)Jadi dia bebas dari Sam, gak bisa saling dengerin pikiran dan gak bisa diperintah-perintah lagi. Dia lebih milih gabung sama Jake yang jelas2 benci sama dia daripada terus2an di kawanannya Sam. Dia belajar maju ke depan ngelanjutin hidupnya dan gak pernah noleh lagi.

Yah waloupun butuh sekitar 1500an lembar (3 buku) buat Leah untuk nemuin cara supaya move on. Tapi akhirnya dia move on juga,, seenggaknya mengambil langkah pertama untuk move on. Gw di satu sisi suka juga sama dia. Cewek kuat dan bisa diandalkan sebenernya. Tapi karena keadaan dia jadi memperlakukan semua orang semena-mena. Gw suka gimana dia diceritain rapuh tapi berusaha kuat dalam waktu yang bersamaan (dan kalo pikiran lo bisa dibaca semua orang kyk dia, yakinlah usaha untuk naro senyum di muka bakalan sia-sia). Gw suka ending ceritanya dia. Intinya semua orang pasti move on. Terus semakin lama dia semakin dewasa dan gak bikin semua orang merana kayak dia lagi. Dia malah sempet ngasi nasehat ke Jake...

Leah: “ tau nggak apa yang bakal lo pelajarin dari tau kalo lo gak akan pernah bisa dapet yang lo mau?”
Jacon: “ gak.....”
Leah: “ itu bikin lo PUTUS ASA....”

dan tentu saja kata2 pamungkasnya yang bikin gw nangis:

" gw cinta Sam. Masih. gw pingin dia bahagia. gw mencintai dia cukup untuk pengen dia bahagia. gw cuma gak mau ada di sisinya dan nonton dia bahagia."

Setelah gw pikir2 bener juga........ tapi justru putus asa itu yang bisa bikin pikiran kita terpaksa melanjutkan hidup. Bukan begitu?

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You'll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times


Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times

Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything

And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

To All mums out there that rocks!!!! termasuk temen2 gw yang udah jadi ibu ato mom-to-be.... moms rock!!!

What an epic title don’t u think? Hehehehe

The truth is, i always feel that my first love is a guy with a mixed race between movies, songs, and books... so i got them all... and i’m pretty sure i’ll love him forever and ever, or if i may borrow Bella’s word... he’ll become the love of my existence... which if i’m lucky enough, i’ll have it until the ripping age of 92 just like my grandpa..... ( but with this kind of lifestyle i’m going, the food i’m eating, the sleeping habit i’m having.. i really don’t think i’ll last that long.....)

Which bring us to the main point of my writing.... I really felt, you know with my fond of that guy, I should pick major that relates to Communication, Jurnalism, International Affairs, those stuff...pretty sure I’ll go the distance,,,,

As an example, a friend of mine is writing a thesis about the Spiderman Trilogy!(oh yeah she is) and by the way she majored in Communication, and when i figured that out, i was like thinking (damn girl!!!! I wish i’m the one writing that thesis)no need’stuck’ moment where i can’t find the scientifically new enough journal , failed the process and have to restart, tools broken.... and plus... i love movies, i’d do movie review or book review anyday and felt happy finishing it!

At that moment, I really wish and hope that spiderman becomes superhero not because of a radioactive spider, i was hoping he is having more of the new Staph infection,,, like a really new and improved strain of Staphylococcus that can produce toxin that makes Peter Parker gain a superpower strength... well of course i should think of a name (there’s no way he is called by Staphy man right?! I still looking for a suitable name, but I’ll figure the name soon i promise) so then i can write a thesis titled “ Isolation of A New Staphylococcus Strain Producing Powerful Toxin Using StaphyMan Blood”... and there goes the noble prize winner in science.... (cool isn’t it?)

but... fast forward 4 years later, i really do have no regrets.... seriously.... at a few early semester i did have a massive amount of shock therapy thrown at my face every day (my blog at 2006-ish curse a lot about subjects i take).. who would’ve thought i’ll study genetic, biology cell and molecullar, immunology, Genetics recreation (as if having 4 sks of (dysfungsional) genetic is not enough! They abruptly add 3 more sks bonus on the next semester!),,,, but hey no regrets here honestly, i still manage to pass the bar and graduate on time, no very visible barrier, of course i’m none of those cum laude-ers, but i did okay.... so what is there to regret? Actually i felt very thankful of my non-stop active imagination, coz with it i managed to tackle a very long and much valued (at that moment) practice reports .... o yeah,, i have the superpower syndrome of making a very long-as-in-never-ending journal which emphasizes pretty much everything. as a result? Usually i get an A! not bad,,, for a girl made of dreamers inside and out!

so yeah.. here i am infront of my laptop
bragging about how much i wish i know i'll be in this position 4 years ago...
didn't feel sorry for what i've become....

and really hoping, by the same time next year i'll be cursing about the subjects i take too..hehehehehe

I hear he's kickin ass across the board and rock two hundred thousand higher score and just in time to save the world of being taken over
he's a warrior
i couldn't play again because the game it never end it never even landed on the can and never let me in to spend my quarter
there's no love for me no more

say it isn't so
how he easily come, and he easy go
please don't tell him that i've been meaning to miss him
because i don't

he was the boy with the broadest shoulders
but he would die before i crawled over them
he is taller than i am
he knew i wouldn't mind the view there
or the altitude with a mouth full of air
he let me down and doubt came out until the now became later

say that it isn't so
how he easily come, how he easy go
please don't tell him cause he don't rally need to know
that i'm crazy like the rest of us
and i'm crazier when i'm next to him

so why after the all of everything that came and went i care enough to still be singing of the bitter end and broken eras
i told you i don't but
i am only trying to be the best with my intent to cure the rest is sure to lay me ease the plural hurts of the words of reverse psychology
that's easier said
easier than done
please don't dare to tell him what i've become
please don't mention all the attention i have drawn
please don't bother cause he'll feel guilty when i'm gone

because i'm crazy like the rest of us
but i'm crazier when i'm next to him
and it's amazing how he's so self-assured
but i know he'd hate me if he knew my words
do i hurt anymore
do i hurt, well
well i don't
well i don't
well i don't

Entah kenapa semua saraf emosi gw nampak goes hand in hand sama kelenjar air mata gw, a.k.a the famouseee tetesan air dari mata ekspresi kehidupan (well, i refer to my life actually). Jadi mau apapun yg gw rasain entah itu marah, apalagi sedih... ujung2nya pasti gw mewek abis sesenggukan gak jelas... agak memalukan sebenernya (sangat memalukan malah).

Kalo emang gw lagi sedih siy ya gak papa... toh semua orang pasti pernah nangis lah...tapi kalo lagi marah (gw sangat berpengalaman dalam marah sambil nangis, believe me... apapun yg lo ucapin gak akan kedengeran jelas karena nahan nangis juga... yang ada suara aneh berupa sengau2 gak jelas...) udah gitu kata2 marah juga jadi gak ada artinya, karena semua juga tau... NANGIS = KALAH..... so even though gw marah sebenernya, tp tetep aja kesannya gw yang tersakiti dan otomatis di posisi yang lemah.... yupz... the story of my tears and me...

Gak tau juga kenapa ekspresi emosi gw yang paling kentara kok malah dari nangis, mungkin liter an jatah air mata di badan gw lebih banyak dari orang lain, mungkin juga karena sebenernya gw ini sensitif (eh bahasa kerennya fragile) jadi lebih gampang nangis, ato juga mungkin gw emg gak se-tough yang gw kira jadi nya ya gitu,,,, hobi nangis (yang kalo dipikir2 sangat cewek sekali).

Kadang2 pengen juga gw bikin diri gw sendiri agak2 mati rasa gitu, jadi kalo ada yang ngata2in gw ya gw gak nangis tapi bisa ngelawan (ehem... biasanya gw ngelawan juga siy tapi sambil nangis...) it’s hard to be taken seriously when u’re crying...apalagi kalo special efek sobbing sudah tidak tertahankan... (yang berarti gw udah sakit hati banget).... tapi bingung juga gw gimana ya caranya supaya bisa gitu?! Mau ditahan biar gak nangis juga susah, soalnya gw jadi harus diem... (dan gw paling gak bisa disuruh diem)... padahal kadang2 kan harus ngomong apa gitu...
So yeah, i cry... like a baby... i cry like a baby a lot!! Nonton Oprah Nangis, ntn film nangis, liat acara amal di tivi nangis, liat orang di rumah sakit nangis....

Marah ... nangis

Sedih.... beuh itu mah apa lagi... beyond sesenggukan

Mungkin air mata gw adalah self defense gw... yang kalo dari sisi biologisnya siy ya (sok2an mode *ON*) kan isinya Garam (0,85 % NaCl lebih tepatnya) garem kan fungsinya menjaga fungsi fisiologis sel, mencegah supaya gak lisis gitu.... mungkin air mata gw bisa ngejaga supaya gw gak lisis (well seenggaknya sel- sel gw gak jadi lisis waloupun hati gw belum tentu ya...) yang mencegah gw falling apart karena mungkin sebetulnya badan gw aja tau gw itu fragile,,, broke easily.... kudu di handle with care lah istilah nya... so... it handle myself gak pake diskusi dulu sama yang punya badan (buktinya tau2 udah ada yang ngegenang aja gitu di mata bikin smua kliatan burem),,,yah kurang tau juga gw sebenernya kenapa gw se gampang itu bisa nangis....

Kadang2 sebel juga kenapa siy gitu aja ko harus pake nangis, tapi nampak gw beneran orang yang gak punya filter hati... (as in saringan yang fungsi utamanya adalah menyaring hal-hal yang berpotensi menusuk dan menyakiti hati, dan hanya meloloskan hal hal yang bikin seneng aja). Jadi mungkin filter gw lobangnya kurang kecil, orang laen punya diameter 1 mm yang gw punya Cuma diameter 1 cm... ya jelas lah apa-apa langsung masuk ke hati...

So i’m an open book, smua bakalan tau apa yang gw rasain ato perubahan emosi yang ada di gw... ekspresif lah ya bahasa lainnya....
There’s nothing wrong being an open book... as long as i turn the page carefully.....
x.o.x.o

Gw termasuk orang yang bisa dibilang suka baca.... (yah kalo novel2 mehek, gak terlalu tebel, happy ending ato seenggaknya dicari jalan tengah supaya happy end termasuk ke dalam bacaan bermutu siy then i’m oficially a bookworm).

Akhir-akhir ini gw suka cerita-cerita yang agak2 dramatis, dan berhubung waktu luang gw rada lumayan banyak kalo lagi gak ada kerjaan jadi gw sedang mencoba membaca novel nya Jane Austen (so far...karena kemampuan b. Inggris literatur gw rada2 so-so, jadi gw baru baca Pride and Prejudice sm Sense and Sensibility- itupun bolak-balik buka kamus)... yah novel2 romantis ala inggris abad pertengahan (gak tau kenapa gw suka banget settingan jadul kayak gini), heran juga cerita romantis kayak gitu dikarang sama orang yang seumur hidupnya nggak nikah apa karena Jane Austen stay single ya jadi dia bisa ngarang buku tentang dicintai-mencintai, pengorbanan, dan penemuan jati diri yang indah banget, cause she knows how it supposed to feel... target gw? Gw bakalan baca novel nya Jane Austen yang laen juga...kalo bisa merambah ke yang lebih tinggi. Amin

Tapi,,,, begitu gw baca buku nah pastinya tu buku gw bawa kemana2 (salah satu alasan kadang2 gw gak bisa nemu buku yang gw cari, karena tempat naro nya yang gak jelas).... apalagi kalo mnurut gw bukunya seru banget...pasti lebih gw bawa kemana-mana lagi, dibaca sambil dengerin musik, makan, minum ya gw bawa juga tu buku....

Tau sendiri lah bad habit mengakibatkan bad effect juga... hehehehe gak jarang buku2 gw banyak noda kopi lah, nasi lah, agak kelipet krn kedudukan dikit dan sebagainya.... jadi semakin sering gw baca, bukunya bakalan makin lecek. Tapi gw anti kuping babi ( you know, lipatan di ujung sudut buku yg bikin bukunya susah dibuka – it looks like pig’s ear to me) jadi seenggaknya buku- buku gw gak ada kuping babi nya. Kata orang itu tandanya gw kurang merawat buku gw...abis gimana ya kadang-kadang gw gak bisa ngelepasin bukunya gitu aja. Pengen siy agak mengurangi, gitu yah rapi dikit lah, abis baca taroh di lemari, lebih suka kalo disusun alphabetical order nama pengarangnya.... that’s what people do....kata kuncinya people.... bukan ulli.

Tapi ya gitu kelemahannya dari “kesukaan” gw itu kadang-kadang kalo bukunya mau dibaca lagi gw suka susah nyarinya... dan suka sedih juga ngeliat buku ko banyak noda nya kayak gini. Padahal setiap buku biasanya gw sampul lo!! Kalo gak gw sampul ya belinya di toko yang nyediain fasilitas sampul buku.
Yah bgitulah, oia satu lagi kebiasaan gw, nandain quote yang bagus2 di bukunya.... yang rapi tapi. Padahal gw pikir ini kebiasaan jorok, eh tapi ternyata Oprah juga gitu (yaaaaay! Oprah membela gw) jadi sampe sekarang masi gw lakuin juga.....
Coffee stains (and all other stains) on books, that my friend, is my bad habit. .. yah mumpung bentar lagi taun baru (dan gw lagi nyari buku The Good Earth yang belum ketemu juga dari kemaren gw cariin) jadi gw akan mencoba untuk lebih rapi nyimpen buku yang sudah-sedang-dan akan gw baca. Wish me luck!

selamat Idul Adha semuanya....
Mohon Maaf Lahir Batin dari sayah....

Semoga bisa memberikan pengorbanan yang berguna bagi diri sendiri dan orang lain
Semoga diberikan keikhlasan memberi
Semoga Pengorbanan yg diberikan gak sia sia
Semoga taun depan bisa korban sendiri.... (Amiiiiiiin Ya Allah.....)

meanwhile? i'll stick to motong2 daging hahahahahaha

I LOVE GREY’S ANATOMY!REALLY DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH GREY’S ANATOMY!
So much that I can think of Shonda Rhimes as a Goddess and really really really appriciate that she has the creativity, vision, love, and passion in making a real good series. A real good one.... a massively viewer drawn ratings....a great impact.... seenggaknya bwt gw pribadi gw bener2 ngrasa Shonda Rhimes is really good at this! She’s like my own personal shrink comes with a box of cool dialogues, huge amount of laughs, and quite few drop of tears moving enough for me not to realize I was visiting shrink nor needed it in the first place!
This love for the series grow even bigger after i watch season 5! (yup, terutama krn gw br sempet ntn eppy 8 sm 9 nya sekarang,,,) of course it has flaw.... like what the hell is denny doing with izzie?he’s dead dude! But anyway....

I like how each of every character is able to portrait different kinds of emotion.... the switching of emotions.... the tension...the everything...yupz everything... Cuma serial ini yg bisa bikin gw nangis dan ketawa ngakak abis dlm satu episode dan Cuma serial ini yg disetiap akhir episode nya gw bener2 bisa ngambil pelajaran hidup (seriously real life lesson learned from tv show? Check!).
Apa yang ada di dalemnya bener2 bisa ngerefleksiin yg terjadi di dunia nyata (not the changing partners...the self issues...and the mental disorder thing....it’s still drama anyway)... tapi dari segi gimana cara masing2 karakter ngadepin kehilangan, ngedepin cinta, bikin komitmen untuk diri sendiri dan orang laen, dan menurut gw yang paling penting gimana cara grow into a better person... maturity goes hand in hand with times and experiences...
It’s a medical drama.... tapi di dalemnya ada banyak banget kasus-kasus yang bisa ngerefleksiin keadaan sebenarnya....

gimana cara letting go krn keilangan seseorang ato sesuatu yang means a lot bwt kita, n pastinya kita pake topeng super tebel just trying to convince ourself (and everybody else) kalo “we’re fine....” “we’re good” “everything is seriously okay” padahal begitu ada satu aja pemicu .... mental breakdown deh jadinya (salah satunya ditandai dengan meracau, marah2 ato teriak2 sambil nangis...) cristina teriak2 wkt keilangan bayi nya di season 2, izzie gak mau bergerak nempel di lantai kamar mandi waktu Denny meninggal di season 3, di season 5 Callie nangis d OR gara2 ditinggal Erica, dan yang paling penting Meredith.... she never gets over her mother.... i’ve been in this situation... kalo diinget2 lagi malu juga ha3..... jadi gw tau lah sedikit-banyak gimana sebenernya rasa sakitnya... tapi menurut gw Cristina, Izzie, Callie, Meredith bisa mewakili lah seenggaknya kl it’s okay to have a mental breakdown.... it’s healthy to just let go your feelings....

Gimana kalo manusia itu bener2 tempatnya kesalahan.... we did make bad choices in the past... Izzie motong L-Vad wire nya denny, Cristina scrub in operasi waktu hari H nikah yang bikin wedding vows yg ditulis di tangannya jadi ke apus, Meredith nenggelamin diri, Addison screws Mark – Derek Screws Meredith, George Cheats on Callie..... and so on..... kita juga... siapa siy yg ga pernah bikin salah? Tapi yg penting adalah gimana cara ngadepin situasi setelah bad choices diambil...move on dan gak ngulangin kesalahan yg sama (untuk ini gw juga pernah ngalamin)
(seriously happend in real life? check!)

Gimana kl dlm hidup ad consequences....hahahaha regardless fate yg ud ditetapin....

dan yg paling penting soundtrack ny itu lhooooo (seriously must listen tunes? check!!!!!!!)

so yeah.... do urself a favour n ntn Grey's Anatomy....
it is worth the time..... and the hard disk slot....hehehehehe

soundtrack ---Lenka - Trouble is a Friend (sangat menggambarkan Meredith sekaleeeeee)

He is there in the dark,
He is there in my heart
He waits in the winds,
He is gonna play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah
Trouble is a friend of mine

jadi ceritanya kalo udah bulan2 desember gini somehow mood gw lgsung me-mellow....ha3...not only akhir taun gini gw bakalan tambah tua setaun lagi (not that i'm complaining bout getting older...) tapi juga krn ujan melulu jadi cuaca agak2 mendukung keromantisan gt hihihi (though i'm single, yg namanya romantis mah teteup aja) dan yg plg penting karena bentar lagi natal (bukannya gw ngerayain natal, tapi gw ngerayain film2 yg bakalan diputer kalo lagi natal!he3). sums up? It's warm and fuzzy feeling galore!

Jadi? karena kemaren2 gak gitu banyak kerjaan....4 hari ini gw baca The Twilight Saga (Twilight-New Moon-Eclipse-Breaking Dawn)....
gw pertamanya termasuk yg heran juga kenapa niy buku ttg vampir jatuh cinta sama manusia ko bsa jd best seller.... jadi untuk sekian lama buku2 itu cukup teronggok manis di lemari. tapi gw liat di brita film nya juga jd box office... gw pikir there's gotta be something in it! karena penasaran, jumat kemaren mulei lah gw buka2 n baca dari twilight.... and i really really really really really got hooked! (lebay). ditemani cuaca yg ujan mulu, dengerin radio lagu pelan putus cinta, dan beberapa cangkir swismiss ber marsh-mellow nya...jadilah gw brasa terbang ke awan... Thank You Stephenie Meyer!!!
impression? ROMANTIS MAMPUS!!!! sumpah ini buku truly inspiring bwt imajinasi gw (seenggaknya) yg isinya udah jelas lagu cinta melulu...(emang gw bener2 org melayu). memposisikan diri gw jadi Bella (yeah, we girls do that a lot!) dan memanipulasi setiap chapter dengan gw di posisi Bella, punya soulmate tipe2 Edward cullen....hahahahaha not the imortal-vampire thing, the human part...(a girl can only wish!). Bwt gw niy buku well written, y salah satunya krn yg nulis cewek jadi dy tw gimana rasanya swoon, tremble, butterfly in the stomach, dazzle, yeah all details of love and falling in love dari sudut pandang cewek. tapi jg krn bukunya minim dialog, banyak pendalaman karakternya... banyak detailnya.... jadi yg baca bener2 bisa memposisikan diri jadi karakter yg ada di buku. but still, it's fiction....

gak tw juga krn mood swing mellow gw juga.... tapi gw jadi excited lagi bwt ntn The Holiday (higs3....) love Kate Winslet here...quote nya yg plg gw suka:
"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade"
Jerry Maguire (tentu saja bagian "you Complete me" yg unforgettable ituuuu),
Wedding Singer (Hell yeah bagian Adam Sandler nyanyi Grow Old With You di pesawat)
ha3.... yup yup yup... bener3 gw romance genre-sucker!!! i got weak on the knees cuma gara2 gitu doang.... siapa bilang being single sucks? hahaha (pembelaan diri)

oh ia satu lagi, gw jadi merhatiin stiap lagu yg gw denger... anyho.... The Script: The Man Who Can't Be Moved described it very well!

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard,
got your picture in my handsaying, "if you see this girl can you tell her where I am
"Some people try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "son you can't stay here"
I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for
If it's a day, a month, a year"Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world
Maybe i'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
Cause you'll know it's just for you
Im the man who can't be moved

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move

o, n btw I dream my on version of Edward Cullen Coming soon! ha3... I'll See you when i see you!